THE FOREWORD





Before we begin walking in the shoes of this child ...

and that is exactly what we shall be doing ...

there are a number of things

that need to be clearly explained about

DEVASTATIONS ... Within The Pages Of My Mind,

and the most important thing

is that all of the events within these pages

happened to one individual ...

this child ...

and that all of the events are 100% FACTUAL,

as are remembered by this child.



Conversations are as accurate as possible.



However ...

some names have been changed,

or omitted,

to protect the innocent,

as well as the guilty ...

for the usual,

as well as the obvious,

reasons ...

but the main reason

is that knowing who is a monster

does not necessarily mean

that you know whom is not,

as there is one thing

the child has learned above all else ...

monsters come in all sizes, shapes, and colors ...

and the cruelest of them all

come with the brightest of smiles,

and often bearing wonderful promises

and/or

spectacular gifts.



A WISE PERSON TRUSTS NO PERSON COMPLETELY



Another reason

that most of the real names

have been changed,

or omitted,

is that this book

is definately not to be considered

to be the central character's source of revenge ...

that would be non-productive

and a definate waste of time ...

besides,

there seems to be a force,

or entity,

that already seems

to take care of those

that would cause,

or have caused,

harm to the child ...

you may well call it Karma ...

whereas the child calls it ...

My Angel.



However,

the child's angel

has not always been there ...

or maybe it has ...

no matter ...

the important thing is

that the child remembers,

exactly,

when this angel

made its first appearance ...

outside of a dream.



ANGEL?



Surely, you believe in angels ... don't you?



The child most certainly does!

Because the child has proof,

SOLID PROOF,

that angels exist,

and the proof is within

the pages of this book,

as it is within

the pages of all our minds.



A WISE PERSON BELIEVES IN THE POSSIBILITIES



The child's angel

tells the child things ...

secrets ...

and teaches the child

all that is of importance

to, and of,

the child's world,

and so very much more ...

much as other angels

have whispered into the ears

of others who have listened

with an open, eager, heart and soul ...

like
Benjamin Franklin,

Leonardo Da Vinci,

Abraham Lincoln,

Martin Luther King ...

and so many other

out of the norm individuals ...

whom ...

as Albert Einstein

and Jophn Lennon ...

seemed to become more talented

as they aged ...

the child's angel,

too,

gifts the child

with wonderful discoveries,

and a few of the most extraordinary talents ...

when they are needed most of all.

And at the very worse of times,

the child's angel steps in

to guide the child to the truth ...

to safety ...

and,

at times,

to even save the child

from certain death ...

as you shall witness

as you stroll through the pages

of this child's mind ...



if you enter with an open mind,

a caring heart,

and an awakened soul.




A CLOSED MIND DISCOVERS NOTHING!




Devastations ... Within The Pages Of My Mind,

is intended to open as many eyes as possible

to the truths we have chosen to ignore ...

as we ignore our world ...

a world and future that we have created,

or have allowed to be created,

for those to come ...

our children's children ...

as well as our reincarnated selves.

A world and future

where the monetary payoff amounts

of an out of court settlement

is so very much more important

than the crimes committed,

and all the innocent lives

that have been damaged,

or even destroyed ...

for that which affects one life,

affects all lives

that come into contact

with that affected life ...

an infected world and future.

A world and future

where no one respects anyone

or anything,

least of all

the life

or the death

of a flower ...

but ...

it was not a flower,

not yet,

it was but sprouted seed ...

so who should care?


No one,


not a soul,


except,


just maybe ...


GOD ...


and the many generations

that were to come

from that sprouted seed.


And the poets ask .....


WHERE HAVE ALL THE FLOWERS GONE"


This is our world ...

this is the child's world ...

a world where no one can be trusted,

not anyone ...

least of all

the sanctity

and the sanctuary

of that which was suppose to be

a House Of God

and/or

Home Sweet Home.




NO MAN IS AN ISLAND, UNTIL HE'S BURNED ALL HIS BRIDGES!




The future is here,

and it's filled

with everything that is wrong

with our world.

All of us are aware of that ... aren't we?



And,



are we not everything

that we swore we would never,

not in a million years,

become?




GREEDY, MANIPULATIVE, POWER-HUNGRY, TWO-FACED, LIEING, THIEVES

THAT DON'T CARE ANYTHING ABOUT ANYONE EXCEPT .....




isn't that what we called the government,

and the corporations,

that told us

the only way to change the system

was to do it from the inside?

But their diseases were highly contageous,

and we found ourselves to be

bought, and paid for,

by the shiny new gotta have its ...

to the point that Home Sweet Home

has become totally vacant

of any family values,

a house of cards

occasionally occupied

with stagnate strangers

that don't know the first thing

about eachother ...

and who cares?



No one,



except,



perhaps,



us?




And the many generations

that could have benefited

where we have not.



But we traded it all

for the price of a big screen television

which no one has the time to watch,

because we're far too busy,

busy, busy, busy,

paying for it all

before it all breaks down ...

just as our abandoned dreams

of a better life have ...



disintegrated.




WASTE NOT, WANT NOT, NEED NOT!




We've done ourselves in,

we've accepted

the tormented lifestyles

that we've traded

peace and contentment for.



We have taken to financial gains

as an infant takes to breast breast feeding.



We've traded years of debts,

decades,

for possessions

that we will have forgotten

we ever owned

before we finally have them paid for ...

and the headaches,

within our daily routines,

are the bruises

within the pages of our children's minds.

Our anger towards injustice

fills our veins with venom

that is ready, willing, and able,

to be spewed at anyone,

or anything,

that dares to make

the slightest mistake in our path.

We ask not what we can do

for a country

that no longer seems

to care a thing about it's people ......

and our faith in love conquering all

has crumbled with the knowledge

that even our churches

have been nothing more

than a fantasy trip

filled to the brim

with depraved injustices against God,

and the Children of God.

And how many of us

continue to slap God in the face

by entering these dens of iniquities

that continue to hide the facts

of all these disgusting injustices

that have destroyed so many thousands of lives ...

and have left us with the terrifying question

that every parent must now ask themselves ......




IS THERE A PREDATOR IN MY CHURCH TOO?




ARE YOU SURE?




CAN YOU BE SURE OF ANYTHING ..... ANYMORE?




These are just a few of the subjects

that are covered, and discussed, in

Devastations ... Within The pages Of My Mind,

which shall directly affect the child,

our central character,

and there is one thing

you should be aware of from the start ...

the child has a memory problem.



What the child does remember,

is clear as a bell,

and the child, unwillingly,
re-lives these events

without a moments notice ...

much like many of our servicemen do

when they find themselves

trapped in a flashback

of a particular event,

or battle,

during their term of service.

I believe it's called a post tramatic stress disorder,

which is a nice way of saying

the person is flung back into a devastation

that is a hellish nightmare,

and actually re-lives that moment in time

as though it were happening

right then and there ...

for the very first time.

Imagine it ...

one minute

you're sipping a sparkling glass of pink champagne

in a spectacular roof-top garden

with a million stars sparkling above you,

then ... all of the sudden ...

POW ...
your mind tells you

you're back in a jungle

surrounded by gunfire,

bullets zeroing in on you

from every tree and bush.

That is quite simular

to what the child goes through,

but with the mind of a child ...

a mind still developing ...

still being formed to quide him into the future ...

a confused mind ...

totally lost in a fashback ...

lost in a dark maze,

the walls are closing in ...

and the child is scared to death,

frantic ... confused ...

every turn leads to a dead end

drenched in screams and slapping hands ...

now ... add the clinical diagnosis

of his being emotionally unstable,

with a manic depressive nature ...

and dyslexia ...

all of which has not yet been diagnosed.




THEN COMES PARANOIA!




The child will be afraid,

the child will be scared to death,

that deep within

hides a psychopathic killer ...




all the signs are there ...

as are the so many other signs

that shall plaque the child's entire existance.




And the psychopaths prime target is ............. the child!




That about sums up what you need to know

to be able to start your journey

in shoes of this child.




Well ... plus the fact

that the child will come to believe

that all of these events

had to happen for a reason ...

the child prays there is a reason ...

the child has to believe there is a reason ......

and the only reason

that sounds even a little feasible ... is,

perhaps,

the central character's life,

and experiences,

are meant to be told,

and perhaps the telling

of these experiences

may ... in some way ...

cause some sort of change

in the lives, and the laws,

of future generations ...

and,

the only way for that to happen ...




is ...




if the child tells the truth,

the whole truth,

and nothing but THE TRUTH!




THE WHOLE TRUTH .....


that means that we must be allowed entrance

into every corridor of the child's mind.




THE WHOLE TRUTH ...


that means that we must be allowed to know,

absolutely, and entirely,

the child's heart and soul.




THE WHOLE TRUTH ...


that means that you will come to know this child

better than you have come to know anyone else ...

which includes all whom you think you know,

maybe, just maybe, even yourself.




And, hopefully,

you will also agree

that the time has come,

right now,

right this very minute,

for all to know the truth ...

for all to know the facts ...

and for all to stand-up and scream ......








"STOP THE HATE ... STOP THE LIES ... STOP IT NOW!"








Within these pages,

you will meet a child

that will lead you down a path

leading you through a severely abusive existence ...

abuses that are both mental and physical,

and come from every direction possible ...




proving,

to the child,

that there is no safe place,

no safe people,

anywhere on this earth.




And ...

if you still have it in you ...

you may cry ...

you may become angry ...

and you may even want to scream your head off ....




don't hesitate ...




SCREAM!




Because ...




YOUR SCREAM WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE




YOUR SCREAM WILL BE SOMEONE'S SIREN OF HELP




YOUR SCREAM WILL HELP TO SAVE A LIFE




YOUR SCREAM WILL HELP TO SAVE HUMANITY




SCREAM BLOODY MURDER




BECAUSE




WHEN IT COMES TO ABUSE




IT IS YOUR BUSINESS




AND YOUR SCREAMS




MAY WELL STOP THE NEXT TEEN SUICIDE




THE NEXT COLUMBINE




THE NEXT













The child ...

your newest friend ...

asks two favors of you:




1.


Locate a Child Abuse Hotline phone number for your area,

copy it down, carry it with you,

and if you ever see a child,

any child,

of any race,

of any creed,

of any age,

of any gender,

being abused ...




SCREAM BLOODY MURDER




or at the very least

look for a phone

to call The Child Abuse Hotline

or your local police.




WITHIN THE STATE OF CALIFORNIA

THE NUMBER IS

1-800-540-4000

WRITE IT DOWN


KEEP IT WITH YOU

IN YOUR PURSE OR WALLET




FOR OTHER AREAS

CHECK THE PHONE BOOK

FOR YOU LOCAL CHILD ABUSE HOTLINE




SAVE A LIFE


PREVENT THE CREATION OF A MONSTER


BY OTHER MONSTERS


CALLING THEMSELVES PARENTS!




And, try to remember ...

we are all children ...

deep within ...

so, if you ever see a child,

of any age,

from age 1 day old, or younger,

to 102, or older,

being abused ...




CALL 911 ... IMMEDIATELY!




because the person you help today,

may be the person that saves your life tomorrow!




2.


If DEVASTATIONS affects you,

in any way ...

SPREAD THE WORD!


and this address ...


http://ladyshalene.tripod.com/Devastations.html








I should also warn you

that the path the child shall lead you down

is a path of complete darkness,

a path of deep sadness,

a path of complete confusion ...

it will also, at times, be a path of excitement,

a path of wonderful discoveries,

and a path of SHEER DELIGHT!




Some of the events,

experiences,

and lifestyles,

that the child will touch upon,

stumble upon,

and go crashing into,

will include ...




ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER (A.D.D.)


ALCOHOLISM


CHILD ABANDONMENT


CHILD ABUSE


CHILD MOLESTATION


CREATIVITY


CRIME & PUNISHMENT


DREAMS, DAYMARES, & NIGHTMARES


DRUG (CHEMICAL) ABUSE


DYSLEXIA


EMOTIONAL AND/OR MENTAL ILLNESS


EXTRA-SENSORY PERCEPTION


FAITH HEALING


FANATICISM


GOVERNMENTAL CHILD ABUSE


HATE CRIMES


HOMOSEXUALITY


HUMAN RIGHTS


IMPRISONMENT


INSANITY


LONELINESS


LOVE & HATE


MANIC-DEPRESSIVE NATURES


MARIJUANA


MIRACLES


MURDER


PARENTAL CHILD ABUSE


PREDATOR PRIESTS


PREJUDICE


PROSTITUTION


RAPE & GANG RAPES


RELIGION & THE BIBLE


SADO-MASOCISTIC LIFESTYLES


SOUL MATES


SPOUSE ABUSE


SUICIDE


SUICIDE OR MURDER?


TRUE FRIENDSHIPS


WITCHCRAFT (WICCA)


AND MUCH MORE






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